GRUMPY. that, i am. a surly peevish old lady.
the clock continues its tick-tocking without mercy for me the old lady.
hari-hari cranky. hari-hari grumpy. setiap hari, i tell you. dah macam nenek tua.
do i not find pleasure in life? of course i do. but in the non-academic side of it. unfortunately that's only less than 30% of my entire life.
just in the mode of membebel. has been up since pukul 3 pagi tadi tapi macam tak boleh/tak berjaya melakukan anything yg produktif.
hari ini adalah paddy's day. but instead of going out joining the crowd, i sourly stay in my room. konon-konon nak belajar secara cemerlang. but the truth is, i am know that it is not going to go well. so why don't i just go out and have fun? sebab serba salah. macam tak patut nak keluar buang-buang masa sedangkan my finals is in 6 weeks. yes. 6 miserable weeks. padahal duduk rumah je pun sebenarnye macam make things worse.
but stress, i am very bad at handling it. i need help from psych service kot. i need ritalin to help me expand my attention span. prozac to lit a little light in my own darkness. midazolam as routine tablet to keep my cool and it's just great to have it at hand in case i get stress-induced seizure.
hujan, turunlah...
Allah, from you i seek forgiveness.
