bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
pagi yang mendung, semuram dan sesuram hati ini. eceh. but true. somehow the weather pictures my current state of emotion.
xtau lah, may be it's the pregnancy, may be it's the homesickness, may be it's the loneliness.
yes, pregnant women are more sensitive. plus, i miss home so much. dah over a month x blk johor to see the beloveds. and to be honest, i feel so left out skrg. my friends, most of them has already start serving the hospitals, fulfilling our mutual dreams to become doctors, to help people. but i'm still stuck home.
i dont wanna say this pregnancy is a burden. may be it's my rezeki to have it this bad. earlier, i was so happy sb i dont have any morning sickness. but later, just name every single one of them, i definitely experience each.
skrg da msuk bln ke-4. things has gotten better, but still hasnt fully subsided. i'm still sick most days than not.
i know i am whining. but i am trying my best to not be ungrateful. may be i just want this to be over as soon as possible so hard and be able to be myself again.
baby, i love you so much. please grow well inside me despite my sickness. i pray to Allah everyday that you will be perfect and not affected by all the crappy drugs i am taking..
