[WARNING! mode menyenyeh. stay away if berbulu.]
MISSING HOME
very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very
terribly!
[exam crankiness + homesick madnesss ---> i'm going gaga!!]
bangun pagi dengan tulang belulang yang macam tak siap. kena stadi lagi tak kira bagaimana perasaan hati, jantung, atau segala organ n viscera di dalam. stadi sampai macam tak ingat dunia namun apakan daya untuk meresist. kemudian menelefon buah hati pengarang jantung di parit kadir, dan luluhlah segala benteng pertahan dan-dan tu jugak. so i'm a crybaby when it goes down to family. so what? daripada menangis berjela-jela sebab tengok jedward ter-kickout daripada x factor 2009 lebih baik membazirkan air mata keemasan kerana kesayangan-kesayangan sedarahdansedaging, bukan?
i'm having osce on thursday but all i can think about now is HOME. i wanna be home so so so so so so much! do you know how it feels when you want something very very very bad but you cant have it? exactly! what i'm feeling right now. it is so not brilliant. the longer you stay away from home should make you a tougher person, more resilient. but me, i'm just being me. missing home n the beloved family more n more n more each day. but well, that's life, acting like itself.
anyway, utk yang tersayang di HOME SWEET HOME, i love you guys so much. thank you for saying all the nicest things to me all the time. thank you for the understandings and good intentions. thank you for the unconditional love. thank you for every single moment, every single thing. thank you for the infinite layers of comfort and support. thank you for the laughter and the tears. thank you for everything you do. thank you for simply being there in my life. can never say thank you enough. dear God, thank you for making us a family. i couldnt ask for something better. sayang sangat pada semua, sayang berjuta-juta lemon sampai boleh bisnes kontrak ngan kilang lemonade pastu kaya macam billgates seumur hidup duduk goyang kaki takyah keje dah. like overflowing niagara falls, no words can describe. i know how some people cant understand the sentimentality of family love, but i dont care. i just love them too much.
sgt sedih sebab tak dapat be together with semua. tak dapat duduk sesame. tak dapat jalan sesame. tak dapat makan sesame. tak dapat main sesame. tak dapat sesame sesame. bukan sesame street. ok. not funny.
akhir kata, nak makan tomyam special mama.
p/s: how family values to me? simple. like oxygen to living creatures.
yours truly,
the sad, sodden me from being away from you, but who tries her very best to live a life and have fun while here.
[dah makin sejuk. dah pakai blower almost all the time. so the skin is starting to break n the hair is turning into dawai kokot. call me princess fiona in a week. heh. at least she's happily married to shrek.]
