bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
it has been a while hasn't it? sibuk menguruskan kehidupan di sini. over the past month, macam2 jadi. final paeds n psych, the snow and ice, campus life again doing public health. time flies, and before i can really catch up with it, here i am. dec 16th. esok exam public health, then i'm off to home sweet home.
winter means no proper sleep for me. idk. may be it has something to do dengan musim, something like seasonal affective disorder. but it's not like i'm more depressed or anything like that during the winter, tapi i just dont need as much sleep. sometimes just sleeping 2 hours everyday the whole week. then i'll come back to 3 or 4 hours, but never more that 5 hours, then 2 to 3 days of no sleeping at all. i'm fine, its just that with no proper beauty sleep, i'm easily tired... enough about my insomia episode.
i'm flying home the day after tomorrow. can't really describe the feeling. excited, i guess. and then there are the people i love n miss the most: my family and bie.
at this point in my life, there are so many things that i want. i mean, really really really want. but acquiring every single thing does not seem to be very feasible. having one thing, means foregoing some others. what is this greed? adakah bisikan syaitan semata2? tak boleh ke pasang cita-cita tinggi2 dan terus-menerus berusaha mendapatkannya? kadang2 sgt cemburu with the complacent people. those who are easily satisfied with what they get. any tips there? i mean, its not like i'm not thankful with what i have now, tapi i think i have to fulfill my ambitions, and more importantly, my own expectations. and mind you, they are neverending.
cuaca sgt muram outside my window. forecast cakap pagi ni hujan. i hope it does, bcs rain always helps me go through difficult times like this. may be once the rain is over, i will feel better.
sekian. back to public health business.
