bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
it's 12midnight and i can't sleep walau sepicing. penat, yes. but mengantuk, no. ahhh, i just hate when this anxiety crisis is back!
esok i will start my week in fairview clinic. what will it be like? i dont know. only Allah knows. kan? but hopefully it'll be at least as grand as last week's celbridge placement, minus the 2-extra-hours everyday.
too many things going on in this little brain of mine. hal-hal kehidupan. ececeh.
anyhow, i know, we can't possibly take all matters into our hands sebab most (or all) of them aren't really under our control.
i am not mad nor i am sad. but i'm just numb. and may be resigned. surely i'm not giving up, yet. but may be i just need a little break.
yang pasti, han sgt merindui keluarga yang berada sepertiga dunia away. sangat rindu.
in need of strength.
[mahu terbang pulang ke johor and borneo this instant.]
