bismillahirrahmanirrahim
kepala pusing, mata berpinar2, perut pun lapar. but here i am, blogging. i spent the whole day in hospital bahagia st john of god, religiously. 8.30am to 5pm, doing practically nothing really productive. bese la, first day back after a long weekend. my partner the kacak-guy-and-might-be-even-gorgeous, ian went missing. and it didnt bother me at all.
today was seriously a perfect day to ponteng. but i didnt. i dont know why. may be i was too malas to even get my butt off the hospital ground and preferred to just loiter around, which was the easier option as i wouldnt have to be in the cold and spend more time waiting for the bus.
i did try to do some studying in the library, but i guess it didnt work. all i got was still an empty head, and a headache, which resulted from a combination of 3 mugs of coffee after almost 48hours in a row hibernating with an empty stomach, the annoying bus service which never runs on schedule and the super-depressing psychopharmacology bits of this rotation.
then i went to see a depressed patient in the afternoon, and i seriously think the depression is contagious. bcs since then, ive been feeling low mood and experiencing general somatic symptoms.
yeah yeah yeah. life isnt so great at the moment. i feel like i can eat a whole box of choc in one go.
missing home. missing bie. like tak boleh blah. being away this far and this long, im truly a lost cause.
oh Allah,.. please please please make this whatever time left, bearable.
sekian. let's just sleep this off and may be, hopefully, i will feel better tomorrow.
the homesick me, like always,
han
woodbine park
