subhanallah.... besar sungguh dugaan yang datang.
it's a mental torture. thinking what you did wrong to actually get scolded this much in just 2 days. and yang frust tu, because you cant figure out what was actually the issue.
hari ni rasa sangat-sangat tak larat. rasa hidup ni unfair. well, nobody said it is supposed to be, kan? but anyway, penat. saaaaaaaaaangggggaaaaaaaaaaaaatttttttt penat. and bila kena marah secara percuma (baca : without any valid reason), badan dah macam tinggal jasad je. jiwa, dah terbang ke awan yang terpilu. ceh.
kadang-kadang memang la kami bersalah. tapi benda kecik je pun. so takyah la nak marah seolah-olah kami dah bunuh patient tu atau better, bunuh you.
seriously, obgyn is harsh. and ditambah pulak dgn hospital environment yang harsh, dan diri sendiri yang sedang serabut, maka jadilah han seperti ini. ibarat hidup segan tapi mati takut.
bilakah masa semua ini akan berakhir? hopefully hari ni is the last one of bad luck. sebab should this go on any longer, may be i'll end-up dekat tanjung rambutan, or tampoi. hmm,.. may be tampoi is a better option. well at least i'll be close to home.
penat dan ditemani perasaan hampa. this is so not helping when you have 2 textbooks to finish in another two-and-a-half weeks. boleh sakit otak. oh wait, somebody did say i am so morbid in the head. great, thanks.
tailbone pain, sebab too much naik basikal. and both kaki yang dah nak give up carrying badan secara intensive setiap hari.
medicine is tough.
i will definitely remember this day, the hard works and all the physical and mental aches and pains, for as long as i practice medicine.
sekian. im not complaining, hanya meluahkan rasa hati yang dah macam belacan. bcs life is bleak at the moment.
[happy birthday to my dear baby sis. i'm sorry i couldnt even talk to you today. blame my school =p i love you dek, and i miss you sangat2. cant wait for summer to come!]
