menulis entry ni sambil menghadap french loaf cicah horlicks panas. sejuk2 camni, perut pun tau main keroncong je, walaupun sebagai true-blue johorean we should play ghazal instead. heh.
another cold day. in fact, i think the snow is thickest today.
i really need to study, but my head is all fuzzy, muddy and cloudy. from the weather. from the throbbing of my sprained ankle. from the homesickness. from some disturbing ideas. from all the thinking. well, i'm just being me: complicated.
hidup ni, bukan all revolving diri kita sahaja. banyak hati perlu dijaga sama. bahagia bukan equal to hidup dan happpy sendiri-sendiri. tapi happiness and togetherness shared bersama orang-orang yg bermakna. siti nurhaliza cakap: perlu berkorban untuk pertahankan kebahagiaan. tapi dalam kes ni ape yg perlu dikorbankan? dan siapa yang perlu melakukannya? entah la. dah merapu ke mana ni. kesimpulannya: biarlah rahsia.
sangat rindu pada my baby brother. he is the only one who can make me smile n berdekah anytime anywhere (kecuali waktu die balik skolah n cakap : 'kak, handphone kite hilang' sambil buat muka tak siap.. time tu mmg han angin) my baby brother yang sekarang da jadi giant. subhanallah,.. growth spurt in a boy mmg can be really amazing. he's taller than i am now, and his voice omg! mmg macam giant. hehehe sorry yang~~
anyway, life must go on. apape pun, bersangka baiklah kepada Allah. percaya bahawa setiap perkara yang berlaku is the best. ade hadis qudsy tu, Allah cakap : "Aku adalah seperti mana sangkaan hambaKu terhadapKu." fan cakap, kalau fikir positif, Allah akan end-up kan perkara ni positively. tp klu fikir negatif, otherwise will happen.
so in the end we have nothing to worry kan? sebab semua ni urusan Allah. we can never take everything into our hand, sebab kita takde power pun.yang penting usaha, berdoa, then serah semua pd Allah, bcs Dialah yang Maha Mengetahui.
saying all these more to myself than to others.
eh eh, tetibe da jadi serious plak. uhuh. loose up balek ah.
tetibe je teringin nak makan kerang goreng sungai lurus. sejuk2 camni, mmg masyuk kalau dapat semangkuk dua. ade plak otak-otak kempas. memang heaven.
sekian. jom sambung makan! horlicks da sejuk plak. huhuhu
[trying very hard to love my anatomy textbooks again. one thing i can definitely tell you: it is such a pain in the a**. i'm sooo gonna get killed by niamh this monday kahkahkah]
